What the fuck happens now?

Some rambling, alcohol fuelled thoughts that may not be agreed with.

Today, the United Kingdom left the European Union. And for what? You know, I still don’t know why this referendum has taken place. Why do the establishment want us out? Immigration or national pride? Or both? National pride? Pictures of bowling greens and strawberries and cream. In an ideal 1950s chocolate box world maybe.

Frankly this result is shit. I’m boiling with rage. I mean, it’s fabulous that Cameron will no longer be PM. But BORIS COULD BE THE PRIME MINISTER! This is not good. This is a man who is a laughing stock. The image he has is that of a buffoon. What would people across the world think? Jesus wept I’d rather have Theresa May as PM.

It’s not all just about image of one silly man. Frankly, I’m scared. I’m scared that MY future has been decided by the older generation. And, you know, democracy is a marvellous thing. We are lucky to have it. Lots of countries and nations across the world don’t have this privilege. On Facebook especially, I’ve seen status after status all saying the same thing – immigration. “People coming over here and taking our jobs”. Blame this government for the lack of jobs, especially in the North East. But what I do agree on is that we are always forgotten. To be honest the whole of the North is forgotten. London is not the centre of the universe. But to get back to the older generation, the people I saw yesterday were just the type to vote leave. You could tell by looking at them. I can just hear them saying “send the lot of them back” which is disgusting. They live in their own little world and don’t think outside the box. Ok, people are set in their ways. But to vote leave because of something that probably won’t affect them is concerning and downright wrong.

Oh and re jobs, etc, PLEASE do not get me started on the Northern Powerhouse that doesn’t exist. The only Powerhouse I know of is the gay club in Newcastle.

But I am scared. Bigotry has triumphed. We are stepping into Nigel Farage’s Britain of ignorance and xenophobia. And not only that, what about security? What about neighbourliness with our European friends and nations? That’s now gone.

With a deep sigh, I (like everyone) now have to trundle on with my life and accept what has happened. There’s nothing we can do about it. I’m still boiling with rage though.

Taking back control? Sod off. The elite and establishment still control our lives.

What’s next?

My goodness me, it’s been a whirlwind three years at university. And they’ve gone by so quickly! Far too quickly in fact.

As I sit here putting the finishing touches to my comedy-drama screenplay I thought I would reflect on the past three years and how university has changed my life. When I think back to September 2012 I was so immature. I embarked on a completely different life really. Moving into halls was daunting and lonely and meeting new people was terrifying. Particularly for someone like me who is extremely introvert and quiet. Very quickly I began to adapt to university life. At first it was a complete culture shock. Of course it would be. Lectures and seminars are challenging. But more on those in a minute, I have strong opinions on those.

First year was not really enjoyable. I was so unhappy during those twelve months. But it was second year that I have enjoyed the most. The modules in particular were fantastic. The module ‘American Film and Society’ has changed my life. It made me love and obsess over classical Hollywood. If I wasn’t forced to choose that module then Sunset Boulevard would not have become my all-time favourite film. Dramatic but true.

And we come to third year. It’s been good but very challenging. My dissertation has been a joy to write and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed research modules, particularly Cultural Theory and Popular Culture where I wrote an essay on my favourite film. Can’t go wrong there! Scriptwriting has got me my passion back for writing (yay!). Popular Music Cultures was like a whirlwind. Was so busy and lots of assessments. Enjoyable though. Media Studies has been a stinker. Enough said really.

Enough moaning (I moan all the time) what will I be doing in the next few months? I hand my dissertation in on 7th of May, a fabulous essay on media and modern life on the 14th of May and my script and critical analysis on 21st and 28th of May. That’s four weeks and university is finished! *Whimpers*. I don’t want it to end. I’ll miss the structure and routine. It’s drilled into my head that I’ve got a lecture for MAC301 at 12pm in David Goldman on Tuesdays. Results day is 29 June and graduation is 5 July. I’m so scared. I would LOVE  a first class honours degree but I don’t think it’ll happen. No doubt I’ll trip up on stage in front of 300 people and fall over.

BUT. Enough negativity. I’m applying for a Masters degree at Newcastle University in Film: Theory and Practice. Firstly, Newcastle University?! It’s so prestigious! Only clever people go there and I’m certainly NOT clever. But it’s a course I really want to do and if I get a chance of writing an 18,000 word dissertation on someone like Greta Garbo or Barbara Stanwyck then I’m going for it! So not the end of education for me just another step into the wide blue yonder of the future. Eventually I would like to do a PhD. God knows what. Probably film/classical Hollywood.

So that’s my future kind of sorted. I salute Sunderland University for allowing me to meet some life-changing people and to do modules that have been fantastic and have enriched my life. I’ll be sad to leave that place.

As a footnote, after the 28th of May I’m going to be writing some film reviews of around 20-30 classical Hollywood films. Possibly 3 reviews a week. So stay tuned!


I’ve just about recovered from this morning’s announcement that Kate Bush (yes Kate Bush) is to do 15 live shows at the Hammersmith Apollo from 26 August to 19 September! Tickets go on sale on Friday 28 March at 9:30am, my 21st birthday would you believe? The announcement came out of nowhere and is definitely the biggest news of the music industry of the last few years. Twitter, and the media in general, have gone into a frenzy. Well of course they would! It’s been 35 years since her last (and only) tour of her career. Kate has played a few live shows for charity events but has stayed away from the arena of touring if you’ll pardon the pun!

Almost instantly I resigned myself to the fact that these tickets will be like gold-dust and will be an instant sell out. However, I am extremely lucky to have signed up to the Kate Bush mailing list whereby fans like me who have gone crazy can have a chance at obtaining presale tickets on Wednesday 26 March at 9:30am before general release on Friday 28 March. I’ve got some hope of getting them but there is always that chance of missing out on them. We shall see!

So…….. what’s going to happen in these live shows? Well at the minute no-one knows, apart from Kate obviously! The shows are titled “Before the Dawn” and judging from the promotional picture the shows might be have some reference to water or someone in difficulty in water. Or it could be a live version of The Ninth Wave (“side two” of her masterpiece album Hounds of Love from 1985).

Personally, I would love to hear a range of songs from her back catalogue. Maybe even a few new songs. I’m also sensing a new album from Kate. An album release would be a great tie in with the live shows. It’s all very exciting! If us “Kate Bush lot” manage to get tickets on Wednesday or Friday we will be the luckiest people on the planet! To quote Cloudbusting “I just know that something good is gonna happen.”

Below are quite a few of Kate’s songs that I could easily see her play live (listed in order of appearance on each album):

James and the Cold Gun
The Man with the Child in His Eyes
Them Heavy People
Blow Away (For Bill)
The Wedding List
Army Dreamers
The Infant Kiss
Running up That Hill
Hounds of Love
Under the Ivy
Deeper Understanding
This Woman’s Work
Moments of Pleasure
King of the Mountain
Mrs Bartolozzi
How to Be Invisible
A Coral Room
Flower of the Mountain
Lily (Director’s Cut version)

Wild Man

I’ve picked these songs because there is a wide range of material from her back catalogue and a lot of them are piano based and I’ve also picked songs that I feel Kate likes and would willingly perform. I can’t see her sing Wuthering Heights but one never knows! If she sings Running up That Hill and/or Nocturn I can die happily.

So that’s that. When more information is announced I will write a more in depth account of Before the Dawn. Still can’t believe this is happening! If you have signed up to the Kate Bush mailing list before 1 March then you will be eligible for presale tickets which go on sale at www.eventim.co.uk at 9:30am on Wednesday 26 March (search for Kate Bush in the searchbar from that link and the list of shows will appear). The general release is on Friday 28 March at 9:30am and I’m predicting it will sell out in minutes. The ticket prices are £45, £59, £75, £95, £135 including a booking fee and are on sale at www.eventim.co.uk , www.gigsandtours.com and www.ticketmaster.co.uk . Last bit of “admin” – the ticket purchases are limited to four per order and the name of the lead booker (the person who bought the tickets) will be printed on the first ticket. And on the night of the show you will need to have some form of photographic ID to prove that you are who you say you are. And that’s the end of the important “admin” stuff. 

Here are the dates for each of the 15 shows:
Tuesday 26 August
Wednesday 27 August 
Friday 29 August
Saturday 30 August 
Tuesday 2 September
Wednesday 3 September
Friday 5 September
Saturday 6 September
Tuesday 9 September
Wednesday 10 September
Friday 12 September
Saturday 13 September
Tuesday 16 September
Wednesday 17 September
Friday 19 September

So that’s that. Thank you for reading this! I just can’t even believe that a) I’m writing this and b) Kate is DOING 15 LIVE SHOWS! To those who are hoping to get tickets I have my fingers crossed!

Dissertation – let’s talk topics

So since my last post about my dissertation I *think* I’ve come up with my topic/case study – British television culture of the 1980’s. This is a pretty broad area as there is so much to talk about and there’s a heck of a lot of genres. 

As I said in my last post Thatcher ruled the roost in the 1980’s. The 80’s reeked of Thatcherism – greed and money making. In the world of television (especially TV broadcasters) the sense of greed came into place thanks to Thatcherism (you can tell I despise all aspects of Thatcherism).

So that leads me onto my main question – “to what extent does British television of the 1980’s offer a critique of Thatcherism?”. This would be my case study but I’m torn between sitcoms/comedy and drama to show a critique of Thatcherism. I’ll literally have to toss a coin and more books and journals have been written about TV drama of the 80’s. But then again, a study into 1980’s sitcoms hasn’t been written about meaning that there is a GAP IN THE MARKET (BA-ZING!). 

My head hurts thinking about the dissertation. It’s going to take over my life and is already starting to take over. I’m making things easy by compiling a bibliography, I’ve got 50 books/journals already listed so I’m well prepared. It’s just the writing up of it that scares me.

Thanks for listening, I’m going to try to blog the processes involved in creating my dissertation in the coming weeks.🙂

Let’s talk about dissertation topics!

This is something I’ve been thinking about since last summer. I consider myself to be very odd when it comes to things I’m interested in. Most people my age are interested in games, films or music; what am I interested in? Old TV shows. Yes I know, how odd! I love reading about the history of TV, especially the 1980’s and historical/political/social contexts the TV show was made in. Also, the 1980’s are an utterly fascinating decade to read about which was ruled by two ladies; The Queen and Margaret Thatcher. 

So that brings me to what my dissertation should be. Well I’m torn if truth be told. I really want to include the 1980’s in my dissertation as there is so much to talk about and link it into TV but yet I’m worried that a) it’ll be too difficult to research and b) too time consuming.

Possible dissertation titles:
‘From EastEnders to Only Fools and Horses: an examination of television in 1980s Britain’
‘To what extent can British television in the 1980s be considered ‘quality’ television?’
‘A social and cultural examination into British television of the 1980s’
‘From Countdown to EastEnders: a critical examination of British television in the 1980s’

So from these titles, my research interests clearly include quality television, talking about the programmes themselves and social/political changes within the 1980s. But what I’m also concerned about is the fact that I would need to do some form of textual analysis. My only gripe (good word, gripe) is that I wouldn’t be able to do any textual analysis if I talked about TV within the 80s.

So that brings me onto Coronation Street. I ADORE that programme! Again I am unusual as I love the olden days of Coronation Street, 1960-1985 is just gold. So many classic characters and stories. This leads me on to this title:

‘Let’s hear it for the girls! Notions of femininity and gender within Coronation Street

This would be good as it can involve textual analysis and I can do a historiography of the show which is something I love reading about and talking about. But yet I feel underwhelmed about the topic, I get bored talking about gender (I did a module called Writing Gender in first year and I didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would). 

So…. this leads me once again to television in the 1980’s. Margaret Thatcher ruled the country in the 80s and implemented many changes within society. I was in the bath when I thought of this and a possible topic could be:

‘To what extent did British television of the 1980s offer a critique of Thatcherism?’ 

This would be ideal as I could narrow it down to multiple TV genres and I could do a textual analysis bringing in academics, etc. I have literally weeks to decide and I need to decide on a topic pretty quickly!

If you’d like to offer me advice then post a comment or tweet me. Thank you for reading🙂

National Television Awards Predictions

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It’s that time of year again – the National Television Awards are almost upon us. 2013/14 has been a cracking year for telly; 50th anniversary of Doctor Who, The Great British Bake Off skyrocketed into a national institution and we’ve only just said goodbye to our Hayley (pass a tissue!). So then, the million dollar question is who will win what? Below are my predictions (and the nominees I voted for). 

Talent Show – Strictly Come Dancing
Serial Drama – Coronation Street
Comedy – Mrs Brown’s Boys
Drama – Doctor Who
Drama Performance – Miranda Hart
Factual Entertainment – The Great British Bake Off
Daytime – This Morning
Newcomer – Anna Passey
Serial Drama Performance – Julie Hesmondhalgh
Documentary Series – Educating Yorkshire
Entertainment Programme – I’m a Celebrity, Get Me out of Here!
Entertainment Presenter – Ant & Dec
TV Detective – Olivia Coleman
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Tune in at 7:30pm on ITV to see who walks away with the coveted NTA!

21 Songs That Have Defined My 2013


2013 is almost at an end and music has got me through another year. When it comes to music, if I like a song I will play it to death until I know every single word and nuance. So what songs have defined my 2013? Well it’s tricky to pinpoint every song but I’ve picked out 21 songs that I have played to death. The songs are arranged in artist order, I physically couldn’t list them all going off of favourites.

I think it is safe to say that the following 21 songs are the most eclectic songs you’ll ever come across. I certainly have an eclectic music taste!

  1. When You Really Loved Someone – Agnetha Fältskog (A, 2013)
  2. Changeling – Alison Moyet (the minutes, 2013)
  3. Is This Love? – Alison Moyet (Raindancing, 1987)
  4. It Won’t Be Long – Alison Moyet (Hoodoo, 1991)
  5. Smalltown Boy – Bronski Beat (The Age of Consent, 1984)
  6. All of My Life – Carpenters (Ticket to Ride, 1969)
  7. I Can’t Make Music – Carpenters (Now and Then, 1973)
  8. Honolulu City Lights – Carpenters (Lovelines, 1989)
  9. Get Lucky – Daft Punk (Random Access Memories2013)
  10. The Stars (Are Out Tonight) – David Bowie (The Next Day, 2013)
  11. Modern Love – David Bowie (Let’s Dance, 1983)
  12. The Windmills of Your Mind – Dusty Springfield (Dusty in Memphis, 1969)
  13. Free Me – Emma Bunton (Free Me, 2004)
  14. Maybe – Emma Bunton (Free Me, 2004)
  15. Devotion – Hurts (Happiness, 2010)
  16. Somewhere Only We Know – Lily Allen (Somewhere Only We Know, 2013)
  17. Dance Yourself Dizzy – Liquid Gold (Dance Yourself Dizzy, 1980)
  18. Little Talks – Of Monsters and Men (My Head is an Animal, 2012)
  19. P.F. Sloan – Rumer (Boys Don’t Cry, 2012)
  20. Laura – Scissor Sisters (Scissor Sisters, 2003)
  21. Together in Electric Dreams – The Human League (Electric Dreams Soundtrack, 1984)

So what has song has defined 2013? Some may suggest Bowie considering it’s been the year of Bowie and some may say Kate Bush. But for me it’s Changeling by Alison Moyet. When I first heard it back in March I fell in love with it and to hear it live at The Sage was AMAZING!